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[dust_of_life]

[Her fingers are less uncertain, but still gentle. She tries to watch his face this time, without being too creepy about it. Because she usually closes her eyes, but right now she wants to see what it is, exactly, that she's doing to him.

It's surprisingly rewarding.

She tries not to look smug.

Tries.

But there may be a little bit of a smirk in her kiss, as she leans over to brush her lips against his.]

[runsaway]

[ He kisses back a little languidly, breathing heavily through his nose. He reaches up to brush her hair back, almost petting a few times before he speaks between kisses. ]

What do you want?

[dust_of_life]

You.

[Which is to say, she really doesn't know how to answer the question. The kissing is pretty good, though. She catches his lower lip between her teeth, resting a hand on his shoulder.]

[runsaway]

[ He responds with a low laugh before catching her lips again. He holds her face close to his, turning what had been quick and playful nips and kisses into something a little more intense. When he finally breaks away, he keeps his nose resting against hers. ]

You've already got that.

[dust_of_life]

Mmm. True.

[And a big grin stretches out her lips.

One final kiss, and she slides off of him, settling against his side on the too-small bed.]

I suppose you owe me a new coronation ring, though.

[As she forgot to take off her rings. Oops. But she doesn't seem too hung up on it, kissing his shoulder and upper arm absently.]

[runsaway]

[ Oh yes, he did notice that but who was he to comment? It added an interesting friction that he wasn't going to complain about. But even though she's been driving, he doesn't want her to be left unsatisfied. ]

You sure that's it?

[dust_of_life]

[She considers it a moment, her fingers absently tracing the lines of his inner thighs.

Oh. Right. That whole honesty thing.]

I don't know how to answer your question.

[runsaway]

[ He sighs lightly and pushes a few strands of hair out of her face. ]

Do you want me to do anything for you? In particular?

[dust_of_life]

[Well, she figured out that much. And she's torn between feeling amused and feeling a little insulted.

Mostly amused.

She considers the offer for a moment, taking it to a few logical--if a little unfair--extremes. And slowly, she nods.]

Yes. But you're not going to like it.

[runsaway]

[ He has to raise a brow at that, his hand finding a place to rest at her shoulder. ]

I doubt that.

[ Unless she's suddenly developed a terribly kinky side in the last ten minutes, he thinks he can handle it. ]

[dust_of_life]

Challenge accepted.

[She kisses him. Once. Twice. And a third, lingering time, nipping at his lower lip before slooooowly pulling away. She doesn't go far. Her nose touches his, her lips ghosting over his as she coyly whispers:]

I want you...to tell me a secret you have never told a living being in your entire life.

[runsaway]

[ Though the kisses surprise him and encourage his hands to wander a bit, her request does catch him off guard. Sam blinks twice before giving a breathy laugh. ]

Okay, you've got me--I wasn't expecting that.

[ Unfortunately, Sam keeps most things to himself and what secrets he has? They're secrets for a reason. They're not pleasant and not the kind of thing to share over pillow talk.

He exhales slowly and settles back on the mattress. What could he share that would suffice? It's clear he's putting some thought I to it, but it's better than him outright refusing, right? Sam is pretty good at dancing around a subject he doesn't want to talk about. ]

I'm not sure I'm as interesting and mysterious a person as you think.

[dust_of_life]

[There's some satisfaction in surprising him, of course. But she doesn't gloat. Instead, she watches him, her fingers continuing to graze his skin lightly.]

Everyone has something they've never told anyone.

[She laughs a little.]

I'll tell you one of mine.

When I was six, we had a couple Mormon missionaries visit the compound. I heard them talking about paradise and Salt Lake City and got it into my six-year-old head that Salt Lake was some kind of magical place filled with waterfalls and unicorns. So I went up to my room and packed my pink, Barbie suitcase, and told my mother that I was going to go to the bus station because I was ready to go see the unicorns.

[runsaway]

[ It's a cute image, really--a tiny Fatima ready to go tame the city of unicorns. Sam's been to Salt Lake City and it definitely wasn't that magical. No unicorns. He would have remembered. ]

What did she say?

[dust_of_life]

In retrospect, I think she was trying very, very hard not to laugh at me.

I'm pretty sure one of the things I packed was an orange, plastic telephone. And one of her saris that I used for dress-up.

[Her childhood wasn't even remotely normal, but thinking about her youthful treasures...it was normal enough.

Whatever "enough" means.

She shrugs one shoulder up slightly.]

She sat me down and explained to me that there were neither waterfalls nor unicorns in Salt Lake City. And that it was important for me not to believe everything I heard without thinking it through for myself.

[runsaway]

[ He gives an amused snort, shaking his head slightly. ]

Well, that is something to take away from it.

[dust_of_life]

My mother had many talents. Gardening. Cooking. Making life lessons a la Sesame Street.

[Fatima smiles, and not without a healthy amount of pride.]

Arty says she was the best queen the Order had ever seen.

[runsaway]

I don't doubt it.

[ He doesn't know the woman, and he never will, really, but Fatima turned out alright. ]

[dust_of_life]

[She smacks his arm playfully.]

Your turn. You offered to do things for me.

[runsaway]

[ He did, didn't he? Except...it's still hard, and her own aside didn't really give him the time he needed to think of something. He's quiet for a moment, clearly attempting to pull up something worthwhile, but in typical Sam Winchester fashion, not terribly personal. ]

I wrote a paper about my brother, dad, and I going out on a hunt. For school.

[ He didn't tell Dean or John. They would've been pissed, but Sam knew no one would take it seriously. ]

[dust_of_life]

[Well. That's Masquerade breachy...

Parvana, Arty, or Liam would all have had Fatima's hide if she tried to do something like that.

She raises an eyebrow.]

How old were you?

[runsaway]

Fourteen.

[ He wrinkles his nose a bit. ]

Didn't tell anyone for obvious reasons...and I was pretty sure my teacher was gonna fail me. [ A beat. ] He gave me an A.

[ That teacher had a huge impact on him, too. The first person to really tell him that it was okay to go after what you want, that you have the option of going against your family's wishes. ]

[dust_of_life]

[Absently, she kisses his upper arm. Thoughts swirl around her mind. She wonders why the teacher was just okay with that. And why Sam chose to do it. And why this was the secret he chose to tell.]

If anyone had done that at my school, it would have been a one-way ticket to the guidance counselor.

It did happen, sometimes. Some of the other kids on the compound just...cracked.

[runsaway]

[ There's a short smile at that. Yeah, he had been pretty sure that would've been the outcome, too. But it wasn't. Strangely, it wasn't. And while Mr. Wyatt hadn't taken it as a literal depiction of the requested family moment, he saw the underlying meaning behind it, which is something Sam felt like no one had cared to see before.

He'd tried to do anything but the family business. It didn't quite work out that way, but that man? He appreciated him. He still does. ]

Can't blame them. It's not always easy trying to blend in.

[dust_of_life]

[She continues to trail soft kisses along his shoulder for a moment.]

Why'd you do it? You must have known what could happen.

[Even in a world without a Masquerade... Sam's damn smart.]