[ dean sucks in a breath. ]

I was angry. At-- everything. [ but isn't he always. dean falls quiet again for a moment, thinking that maybe he could-- maybe they could leave it at that? or maybe it won't satisfy sam. he doesn't know, it-- it's all so complicated. ]

I thought going back to what I was going to do before everything happened would make being here, like this, easier again.

[ here like this being the real haven, and not a pill-hopping happy version of it. ]